Its has been quite awhile since i update my diary. Had been really bz with work & life.
In just less than another 2 more mths time, i will be turning 35...Times really flies..I have already see myself going thru the past 34 yrs of life journey. So many ups & downs that has happen in my life. What next??? I had been wondering & ponder??? What should i do next? or where should i proceed?
recently i really felt life getting bored..Cant find any direction in my life..Its like im lost totally..I really don feel like doing anything now.. Just felt like resting and taking a long break..Am i getting old or im finding life so meaningless..what should i do??
Its is parts & puzzle of our life that we will bound to experience such thots?? Why is there so many question & doubts in my life??? What do i really want??? To have a family with my own kids??? Migrate to another country to start a new life again??? Is my relationship stable??? Want to change to a more challenging job??? or what??? I really don know...
I felt really sick & tired of myself...What should i do really??? I am thinking really very hard every day???? Want to buy my own house, also don hv enuff cash??? Scared buy liao have to stuck with long term committement... scared buy liao cannot afford to pay the loan....sigh...why am i so troubled....
Relationship also so many problem...sigh....really don know what to do???? I am really at wits end liao...Why am i so troubled over all these problem...Shouldnt i be happy..Where is really my happiness...I want to laugh without ant worries..i want to be HAPPY....Is that so difficult to be happy???
Very very tired...
